No one is perfect, but we all strive to be in some way. Whether it’s having the perfect body, be great at a sport, or be the 4.0 student. I wish I had something that was perfect about me. I hate my nose, it’s big and gives me a terrible profile. Head on I think I look pretty good, but if I see a picture of myself from the side I cringe. I also have terrible posture. I’m working on it, but when you’ve slouched all of your life it’s pretty hard to correct. When I see a photo of myself, I can’t help but to point out my own flaws, and imagine how much better a picture could be it I stood up a little straighter, or looked at the camera, or didn’t have my hands flopped about. I’m insecure about my body shape. I am not overweight, nor am I underweight. I just don’t feel fit enough. I was a gymnast so at one point in third grade I had a six pack. Now I just crave to have a flat stomach. I want my muscles back but it’s kinda hard to do as a full time student with a job plus a hundred other projects. I’m trying to figure out time because I know I can get what I want, it’s just my self-motivation, or lack there of, that brings me down every time. My feet are too big, my boobs aren’t big enough, one eye is a little puffier looking than the other, my nostrils aren’t straight, my lips are too small, my fingers are twisted, I have too many moles. If someone told me I could get plastic surgery, no cost, and come out looking exactly how I want… I would say no without hesitation. Despite how insecure I feel about myself at any given time, I wouldn’t change a thing. God made me the way I am for a reason. How could I even consider changing myself from who I am? Granted, if I needed some sort of reconstruction for medical reasons, that’s a completely different story. Otherwise I like who I am, even when I hate the way I look.
La Costa High Morning News: Part 2
Two teens (Zoe Jarman and Scott Gairdner) anchor the best high-school news program on local TV!
You know it’s been a while since I’ve ever felt this happy. I have a boyfriend who loves me and I love him. I have only told one person this huge secret I’ve been hiding from everyone else about him. Well, more about us. Right now, we’re in the process of finding an engagement ring. We were browsing images on the internet and he sends me this link of one. It’s absolutely gorgeous and stunning and it made me want to cry because it was so beautiful. I wanted to cry out “Yes!” I guess I’m still in that state of awe and doubt though. Just in my life it seems that when things start to go great, they are torn away from me. But this is an entirely different story for another time. I’m afraid that he’s going to see that I’m immature and not worth having around. I can be really crazy sometimes and embarrass him and I hate to find out that he doesn’t want to deal with my antics anymore. No matter what, I love him, even if he changes his mind about me. And he’s told me that he’s afraid of losing me. He’s jealous of any of my guy friends and it’s even harder because I’m away at school and hardly get to see him. The other night he all but asked me if there was anyone else for me. I told him that he was mine and I’d never let go. It’s crazy how alike we are with how we feel about each other. He is scared to lose me and I can’t bear the thought of not being with him. A lot of my family has either told me we aren’t going to make it, or that I should date around and see other people. They are all crazy. He is the first guy I’ve dated and will be the last. I honestly have considered what it would be like to be in a relationship with someone else until I realize someone else isn’t him. I can sacrifice any sort of dating around without hesitation, as long as it means I grow old, married to the man I love.
Interviewer: I think of you as being a shy person. I know you’ve been nude in several films.
Ewan: Yeah. Yeah.
Interviewer: Was that ever hard?
Ewan: … Sorry?
Ewan: Well, actually, darling, um…
Ewan: That was interesting.
